My heart is bleeding
like a river with water
flowing nonstop.
My eyes are frozen
and don't unmelt like
ice melts.
My hearing is gone
like a lost soul.
My hands are broken
like a broken wing
on a bird unable to fly.
My feet don't responed
when I try to walk.
I am stuck in one
spot,staring at you holding
hands with another girl.

A little something for the ex

I'm sorry for wasting your time,
I'm sorry you had to put up with me,
I'm sorry for ever loving you,
I'm sorry for everything we did,
I'm sorry for causing you pain,
I'm sorry for making you worry,
I'm sorry for the way I actted around you,
I'm sorry for ever letting you in my life,
I'm sorry for for knowing you,
I'm sorry we became friends,
I'm sorry we became lovers,
I'm sorry for my problems,
But overall I'm not sorry for leaving you,
And I'm not sorry for caring about you at all!!
I'm not sorry for the memories either,
So goodbye!!!!

The First Cut

Wasn't the deepest
no,not at all.
It was like the others
a subtle rend of anxious skin,
a gentle pulse of crimson,
just enough to hush the demons
shrieking inside my brain.
But this time they wouldn't
shut up,just kept on
howling.

Worst thing was,the older
I got,the more I see how I
fall in an dout of the blue,
then lifting up into the white.
I actual thought about howling
So I gave myself to the knife,
asked it to bite a little
harder,chew a little deeper.
The hot,scarlet rush
felt so delicious
I couldn't stop there,
I continued to cut deeper
until I was put into pain
and realized how much
blood was running down
my arm,I had stopped there.

And now I never look back at
My habit,it's over.

Ability

Everyone had the ability
to control and understand
what is happening but what
will happen to a person when
they can't control anything.
That's when everything usual
to fall apart,nothing being the
same anymore,piece by piece
everything starts to crumble,
shatter,disappear,and vanish
before the eyes of the person
that lost control of what's happening
and that ability to control and
understand.Maybe people can be
able to control with a ability of
understanding and not let everything
fall,shatter,disappear and vanish.

Memories

In every memory there
is happiness,enjoyment
and excitement when
thinking about them.
When someone doesn't
have any memories
except bad ones then
that makes horrible,
unbareable and meaningless.
Memories are different in
many ways and how you
make them is a difficult becuase
the person that makes the choice
is either to make them happy or bad
memories for themselves.Sometimes
memories can be terrible but it depends
on the person that makes the memories
good or bad.

Life Lesson

In my life time,I have done
bad and continue to do it also,
I wasn't thinking back then,
confused,losted and wanted
comfort also with the knowing
someone was there for me.My
choices drove the people away
and not wanting to help but lefted
me to fix myself.I wish I could fix
everything and know better before
I have made those choices.My life
choices or lesson's where a bad choice
that I could of known better and did what
was right but instead I went for it and actual
did the bad instead of good,it was a bad thing
for me and it was bad too.Now I know
better and don't it again........

Helpless

I feel helpless whenever

I try to help someone

in need of help.

It's like a feel of not

being needed at all

and pushed away from

it,like being abandoned.

When trying to help someone

I feel bad because I can't

do that much for them and

for myself either,so with this

I'm helpless to everyone that

I try to help.